It's been too long for updates here. Let's rewind a few weeks ago.

Whilst my July 4th looked dismal and boring as of that Sunday the next day was stellar. House party at D's (nobody understands the D). Nick and his woman were in tow and I was mildly concerned people would be large assholes in some petty fight. Nope.. all was good and fun like the parties of yore. Nick's woman Jen-nay I think surprised him on her knowledge of relevant pop music, dance moves, and enjoyment of such a diverse group of folk... and fireworks being shot from square holes in the deck three feet away from the house. All and all great end point for that weekend. On further review if Jen-nay can handle that and not balk *cough* unlike some folks wives I know */cough* then more power to her. She appeared to enjoy the tours of Omaha and meshed well with the group. Plus she's short and that appears to be qualifications for most of the women that orbit our group.

The next week shall be annoying. The sisters decided to leave me high and dry watching Pete because I apparently don't have a life and will grudgingly curb my existence to keep the dog alive and maintained while Pops is out of town. Typical fun.

It has also been known that my project of three and a half plus years is official on life support. No new projects (outside of the 40 already in the system) will be convert. While everyone else more or less gave up on their CMSWEB projects in terms of maintenance and support the little ol' CB team has chugged through... shouldering the burden Jefe and DK left us with to overcome such adversities (stupidity, lack of planning, lack of direction, shifting goals and ideas, and no communication) to build a stable and functionally usable project.

Fuck.. we have two more patch cycles and we are going to hand it off to maintenance... now.. well now I just fill ill. I heard the heavily vetted rumor Tuesday night at 7pm and almost threw up. After so much time invested in this project.. the late nights.. the crazy solutions.. the realization that if left to our own devices (and kicking jefe and dk out) we can salvage what is done and people will enjoy it. To care that fucking much and to finally see that there are so many who gave up and now are actively trying to kill CMSWEB it is fucking wrong. I have too much emotional and historical investment to have this die an ignoble death I am angry.

Let me clarify my anger. I am angry and Jefe and DK for such shitty foundations. I am angry at them for making us program a shifting target in the dark. I am angry that no one seems to give a crap that with that moving target we hit 80% and now are about 98% done. I hate other teams' lack of conviction in their product thus dragging us all down. I hate how much time I spent. I hate the long nights put into this project because no one else cared. Ugh.. I hate that I care this much. If someone would have told me this would have been the end game I probably wouldn't have bothered.. like falloutboy. Screw that man.

Motivation is lacking hard core.